Sunday, November 11
God heal the hurt...............
You know life has a funny way of turning on you in a blink of an eye.I went from having My parents around Everyone laughing and carrying on..And three Sisters who were my world.To losing them all in ten years,Gone are the fun filled holidays,With the kids running up and down the hallway,Watching them hyped up on sugar,Sometimes the house was so crowed we sat on the floor.Dad always had a pot a coffee on.And life was hectic& fast,,but good,Sometimes all we had was a pot of beans and corn bread that Mom would make for everyone.
Now its just me and my little dog Nuggett .A different house.No noise,No family gatherings and No food on the stove.(In fact I've lived here three years in Feb)And I've haven't used the stove yet.(Now its fast food or the microwave.)I still make a pot of coffee.But I only drink half a cup,the rest get poured down the sink..Your probably reading this and thinking this is down right depressing.But In fact Its not.I don't allow that in my life....I've learned to my make my new house a home.Decorate during the holidays.I spend time with friends from Church and I still have Family. Oh and Nuggett,who makes me laugh,The slightest hint that I'm going somewhere and she does circles as if she won the lottery,Runs and waits by the front door.
But Id give anything to have my family back,There's hope in knowing that someday we will reunite and walk on streets of gold in Heaven The awful thing is I keep having nightmares that I lose them all over again.Several times a week I dream of them,Then I wake up and have to shake it off.Pray for strength and go about my day.I know God has a plan for me.He wants us to be filled with joy and happiness.And I am......I try to laugh daily or make someones day a little happier.I am Blessed beyond words with a best friend that is here for me and makes me laugh so hard at times I cant control it.
I know a lot of you have had it tough and lost a lot as well,But we must move forward and never give up. I've learned to trust in God and he will never leave us nor forsake us.I am living proof,Some people might say Oh GOD is just your crutch,a way of getting through a tragedy.If that's what it takes.Then so be it.Nov. 13th would of been Dads 78th birthday.I will honor it by writing a message to him on a balloon then releasing it and watch the wind carry it off into the deep blue sky.And I'll imagine and Angel will grab the balloon and hand deliver my message to my Dad.And then go about my day.Maybe even take Nug for a walk in the park.(he was her dog first (Mouse)..Ok I think I'm done for now,Not sure why I opened up so much,But feels good to share.Until next time my blogger buddies.
God Bless and Keep on keeping on